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The words and works of God…
I know I say this a lot, but today’s gospel reading (Mark 1.21-28) isn’t a straightforward one for me. As a well meaning liberal, you can imagine how much I love the idea of writing about demonic possession. But the story omes so near the start of Mark’s gospel that it must be seriously significant in introducing who Jesus is, and what he’s about. Much as I’d like to, I don’t think we can ignore it. So, what does it tell us?
First, it more than hints that Jesus is more than just another Rabbi with powers of healing. Miraculous healings and teachers were not, in fact, unheard of at the time of Jesus. But this story hints also at the pre-existant Christ, the Word of God, the one present at creation, whose ‘Let there be light’ lit the fuse on the big bang, whose words breathed life into the universe. In this passage, words and actions tell the same story, demonstrate and prove the same divine power and identity. This story puts some flesh on the promise of the voice from heaven at Jesus’ baptism: this is my son, the beloved, with him I am well pleased. And it more than hints towards the second affirmation from heaven at the transfiguration, where the voice adds, ‘Listen to him’!
And this is what people had been waiting for: someone with the kind of authority that can only come from the Author himself, the Author of life, someone whose words and actions were equally of God.
The people in the time of the book Deuteronomy were also waiting for the same thing: today’s Old Testament Reading (Deuteronomy 18.15-20) is full of expectation, and yet full of warning that prophets will come whose words sound impressive, but are not proved by the action of God – it is only when word and reality match that the people can know for certain that the words are truly the Lord’s.
I sometimes wonder if we also wait for the same thing. We may despise hypocrisy – when people say one thing, and then their actions tell another story – but equally we may grow frustrated when politicians talk of reform and change, but solutions to economic and social crises continue to prove elusive.
The ancient world of Jesus’ time was beset by powers they could not control, frightening demons posessing friends and relatives, that science would probably now call epilepsy or schizophrenia, but which are still no less frightening than they were. And they were held in the grip of political powers they could not control, either: oppression by one foreign power, and then another.
How much has really changed? We may understand more, now, but I think in some ways, we all have moments of feeling helpless, either when faced with the complexity of our own lives, and feelings that there are things that we cannot control, or with the complexity of the world around us, and the very real fears about the direction that our civilisation is headed. We may not fear demons (or, perhaps we do?) but we do fear social problems spiralling out of control, we fear economic collapse, we fear the illnesses that so often seem to be the flip side of longer lives.
Maybe we too long for someone to come whose words are truly words of power, whose talk of solutions genuinely leads to change, who not only are congruent in their words and deeds, but who seem to be able to speak into the very chaotic systems and processes that frighten us, brinigng order and progress and healing to people, to nations, to the world.
That’s why the calling of the church, and of us as individuals, is to more than just living a good life, where our words and deeds match each other, and we are free from hypocrisy. Certainly, it helps if what we say about ourselves, and what we actually do, match, but what God asks of us is far more:
What characterised the prophets, and what characterised Christ uniquely, wasn’t that they, and he, were good people, who didn’t break promises, and who lived with integrity. It was that they were completely alligned with the will and purposes of God. So much so that their words of prophecy and promises of healing relied not on their own resources to be fulfilled, but on the loving power of God. Everything they did and said pointed towards what God was planning for the world.
If we are to be a prophetic church, and if we are to be a Christ-shaped church, then we have to be alligned with the purposes of God, with the will of God. This sort of intergity goes beyond congruence between our own words and actions, and demands that we are also at one with the character of God, and with what God’s love is already doing in the world, that what we say and do can point people to that. It was never about what the church can do on its own, or what we can do in our own power, it was never about finding our own words, making our own way. It was always about trying to hear and speak the words of God, trying to discern the action of God, and pointing people towards God by what we do and say ourselves.
We may still not know how to conquer the chaotic forces of the world – whether we name them literally as poverty, corruption, oppression, or whether we label them as demons, forces of evil. But we can be part of the way that God seeks to heal and change and reform. Finding out how is your task and mine, our joint project of discerning how God wants to use this place, and each of us, in his project of renewing the world.
Somewhere in here is a balance between ‘we must save ourselves’ and ‘we must wait for God to save us’. Somewhere in here there is a third option: ‘we must offer ourselves to God to that he can use us to save others’.
I’m reminded of two stories, the first is silly, the second, not so much.
Here’s the first:
A man was trapped on his roof by floodwater, and prayed to God to be rescued. Shortly after, a lifeboat came past, but the man shook his head, saying, ‘No, God is going to save me’. Then, a helicopter hovered overhead dangling a winchline and harness. ‘No thankyou, said the man, God is going to save me.’ Finally, as the flood waters reached this toes, the man saw one of his neighbours with a home made raft. ‘Quick, get on, friend!’ said his neighbour, but the man refused. ‘No, I am waiting for God to save me.’ When the man finally drowned, and met God face to face, he asked the Lord,’why did you not save me?’ And God replied, ‘I sent you a lifeboat, a helicopter, and a raft, what more did you want?’
Here’s the serious one.
I’m sure you all remember watching news reports and hearing and reading about the terrible Zebrugge ferry disaster. One of the stories from that event which emerged later, told of a man – not a member of the crew – who had taken charge of the panicking passengers, reassuring them, speaking with authority, and guiding them to the lifeboats, saving countless lives that would otherwise have been lost to panic. It was, apparently, the same man, who then went down to the hold, in which many people were still trapped, and became a human bridge, holding on to a ladder with one hand, and with the other to part of the ship that was almost submerged, allowing still more people to climb to safety. When the nightmare was over, that man was found to have drowned, having offered his words of authority, his actions, and finally his life, for the salvation of others.
What a good job we invited him
A little reflection on the wedding at Cana (John 2.1-11)
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
So the servants would have said to each other as they watched the guests enjoying the wine they’d worked so hard to carry in those enormous stone jars. Well, it had been water when they’d carried it, but water was just as heavy as wine, wasn’t it? And no doubt everyone would have passed the blame around if the situation with the wine shortage had continued and been noticed by the bride and groom – and it was always the servants who didn’t have anyone to whom they could transfer the blame…
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
So thought the chief steward. Not only is the wine problem solved, but this man, this carpenter, had somehow managed to come up with really rather good wine. Wine worthy of the bride and groom and their guests.
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
So said the guests, when they found out via the whispered rumours late in the day where all the wonderful drinks had come from. And there’s so much of it! How wonderful not just to provide a bare minimum, but to offer us almost more than we can drink! The fruit of the vine is indeed a blessing, the sign of the abundance with which God will bless the happy couple.
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
So said the bride and groom to one another, years later. Not only did he save our wedding reception from embarrassing disaster, but he also showed us something else – whenever we’ve felt our relationship has been running dry, when we’ve felt empty, or lacking in joy, we remember that he was there the day we married, blessing us then, and he still blesses us now.
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
So said Mary to herself. After years of wondering when the moment would come when her son started to fulfil the potential promised by the strange events of his birth and early childhood. In that moment when she noticed that the wine had given out, Mary knew that this was her chance to gently nudge Jesus towards his destiny – even though that also meant drawing closer to that time when the sword would pierce her own soul, too. This was the moment when all the things Mary had been pondering in her heart started to become public.
“What a good job they invited me.”
So said Jesus to himself.
Because they invited him, he was able to bring them blessing.
Because they invited him, he was able to bring them joy.
Because they invited him, he was able to show them something of God’s abundant grace.
Because they invited him, he was able to learn more about his own identity and purpose, grasp his mission in the world with both hands, and do what he came to earth to do.
Because they invited him, he was able to show to the world a little foretaste of the heavenly banquet.
“What a good job they invited Jesus.”
But what about us?
When do we, and when don’t we, invite Jesus, invite God, into our own lives, even into our ordinary things, our joys and sorrows, our daily ups and downs. The gospels tell us of a man who was absolutley concerned with the ordinary everyday things of life. He went to weddings, and almost certainly baptisms. We know he went to at least one funeral – that of Lazarus. He was invited to dinner parties, to acts of worship, to fishing trips, to confrontations, and to gatherings of every kind. That’s at least partly what the incarnation was about – simply being there, being part of human life.
Jesus was God coming into ordinary life, ordinary, earthly stuff, and blessing it, transforming it, improving it, making it more joyful, more fulfilling…
How much do we miss out on if we don’t invite God into our ordinary messes. How much blessing, how much transformation, how much ‘better’ do we miss out on?
I say to every wedding couple I meet, that they are genuinely inviting God not just to their wedding, but into their marriage, into their lives, into their home. It’s often our desire for independence, for self-sufficiency, that leads us to avoid seeking help, or asking for blessing, or truly desiring transformation. May we learn to recognise our own need, our own times of having run dry, but more than that, may we invited God to be part of every aspect of our lives, simply because we want him to share our lives – that way, when we need him most, we know that he will already be there.
And this is just the beginning…
A very little reflection on today’s gospel reading: Luke 2.15-21
I wonder whether you can remember back to when you were at school, and to the excitement of starting a brand new exercise book? The feeling of the spine as you open it the first time, the way that it springs closed again until you press it flat, the smell of the fresh paper, and most of all the pristine white first page… I know it’s not just me that still finds memories of those ‘new book’ moments to be surprisingly powerful.
Remember, too, that the first thing you ever write in a new exercise book is your name on the cover (and probably your class, your year group, and perhaps the subject that the book is supposed to be used for).
Your name. Where and who you are. What you’re intending to do.
No wonder these ‘new book moments’ resonate so powerfully with us.
And that’s even before you add in the adrenaline rush of starting to write on the first, blank page. The way that your handwriting on page one was always your best, and gradually deteriorated in the pages that followed. The feeling of disappointment at the first mistake or crossing-out. The way that the longer you went without making a mistake, the greater the pressure to keep your book ‘perfect’.
It’s not just me, is it, with these memories?
When the Sunday after Christmas falls on 1st January, and we get the reading about Mary and Joseph taking Jesus to be dedicated, right at the start of his life, for some reason I always think of the new book moments of my life. What do Mary and Joseph have at this point? They have a tiny baby, a lot of promises, and a name. In the book of Jesus’ life, they’ve made the first crucial symbolic step, that of dedicating him to God. And all they have is a name to write on the front cover, some ideas from the angels about what the book will be about, and lots of blank pages of future, for their son, and for themselves as his parents. No doubt they were thinking about what would fill those pages: their hopes, their resolution to do their part to the best of their abilility, and as the grace of God assisted them. But also about all the potential for mistakes, for things going wrong, things that they knew could marr the perfect life story that every parent wants for their child.
On 28th December we remembered the Holy Innocents, all the children slaughtered by Herod in his attempt to destroy Jesus, and the desperate flight of the Holy Family into Egypt. Later, we hear how Simeon warned Mary of ‘a sword that would pierce her own soul, too’ at the suffering of her son. It’s not long before the beautiful blank pages of the book of Jesus’ life are filled not only with wonderful stories and words of life, but with blots of red, and vicious deletions.
But today it’s not just the story of Jesus’ life that we tell. It’s in our nature that as the year turns, we mentally ‘turn over a new page’ or even start a new volume in the story of our own lives. New Year’s resolutions are a way of grasping that new book moment, and the purity and unsullied time between absolution and the start of the next sin.
If you can find one, get out a blank book – some people habitually use rather beautiful journals, others ringbound reporters’ notebooks, whatever you use is fine – and enjoy its potential. Think about all that will be written on its still-blank pages: whether it’s philosophy or shopping lists. Offer all that future to God for his blessing.
Now, choose a really nice pen, and in your very best writing, write your name on the cover. This is where you start. With yourself, just as you are. And this is what you bring to God to dedicate to him, just as Mary and Joseph brought the infant Jesus. Just a person, starting out, with a name, and a lot of potential.
The mistakes will come. But the dedication to God, and all that it means, remains, and will always remain. Whatever you use your notebook for, whatever aspects of your life are recorded in it (whether it be philosphy or shopping lists), offer them to God today, and every day.
A Quiet Christmas
We have a ‘Quiet Christmas’ service every Christmas eve at 8pm. It’s for anyone who wants a real Chistmas service, but can’t face the pressure to be jolly.
Here are the few thoughts that I’ll be offering this evening to whoever comes along.
It’s good that we’re here tonight.
But this is one of those services that we’d still do even if nobody came.
Because tonight is about us, about you. Each of us has our own burdens that we carry on our hearts: for some it is physical pain, of illness or injury; for others it is grief, as we miss the presence of someone dear to us who has died; for others it is anxiety at what the future may bring for us, and for those we love and for the world. For still others, it may be a sense of disconnection with the festivities of the season, and an urge to get back to the heart of things, without the tinsel.
Whatever burden you bring tonight – and we will have each brought something – this service is for us, this service is for you.
But it’s also about everyone who isn’t here: those who were too tired, or too sad, or too shy, to come. Those stuck in hospitals and hospices and prisons and at home. Those afraid to come out in the dark, those who don’t feel that church is for them. Those for whom some hurt or grief is so recent that they daren’t re-open the wound. Some of those people you may know, and think ‘if only so-and-so had thought to come to this. For some, their burdens are known only to God. We bring their burdens too.
Every candle we light, every note we sing, every prayer we say, every silence spent in reflection, is for ourselves, for our loved ones, and for the countless multitudes who know their need but have nobody to care or pray for them.
So it can seem as if this service is more about absence than anything else: the people who could be here but did not come; the people who we are separated from by distance, by conflict and disagreement, or by death. And in a way, it is.
But tonight is more about presence.
Not our presence here, coming to find God, but his presence in the world, already coming to find us. When we feel lost or alone, remember that God is the great seeker after souls. He is the one who came to us, and who chose to come into what is still one of the earth’s darkest most difficult places, because when you are the light of the world, the darkness is where you are needed most.
Into all our emptinesses, all our absences, all our lostness, may the presence of God come and dwell and settle. The hopes and fears of all the years, and our own hopes and fears, can indeed be met in him tonight.